Vision Eve

Today is the day before I leave the square world to cry for my vision, hanblecheyapi. I am excited and ready for the opportunity further my understanding and clarity of my life's vision. This will be my second year of Vision Quest.

I feel much more ready for it this year than last. I feel that I have many more teachings and new understanding this year that will enable me to be even more open to whatever Creator has to show me.

I am absolutely exhausted from preparing for this Vision. Deadlines for school have had me in a hurry. Work has been an emotional drain. We lost a friend and coworker on Friday the 19th. Miles was killed by a car while riding his motorcycle to work in Florida Canyon.

I feel emotionally and physically drained. My stomach hurts this morning and I feel weak. I am contemplating calling out of work today as a result of it. I do not want to shirk my responsibility to my job, but I don't know if I can hang tough again today.

I am even finding writing this blog difficult. In an effort to give my mind a break, I'll keep it short.

My intention for hanblecheyapi is to remain open. And open I shall be, I am a raw nerve.